Hump Day. Aptly named as the halfway point leading away from the average work week, and leading toward the weekend.
Perhaps it's something we are taught, or something engrained in us at birth. Regardless, I can feel it. The weight on my shoulders lessens, and I feel like I can look forward past today.
Perhaps it has nothing to do with it being Wednesday, and everything to do with life, in general.
It's already starting to get hot outside, yet the sun shines and the sky is a deep blue. I pray for rain, but am blessed to not have too much of it. The light streams through the windows, like a beacon of my mood.
Eli has been sleeping in lately, so I have had plenty of time to just prepare myself for every upcomming day. Having been able to avoid a sudden onslaught of the every day, has certainly helped my mood.
Today is my rambling day :)
I am so in love with my husband. Of all of the mistakes that I have made throughout my life (although I've no regrets), I must have done some monsterously good deed at one point or another. God has blessed me with so much! All I can do, is continue to be the person He wants me to be, to be able to pay back His generosity, even if it's just the interest. Steven was certainly sent to me. He was my wake up call. He breathed life into my heart and soul, when I didn't even know I needed it. He saved me, and continues to save me every single day. Describing the love that I feel for him is impossible. There is no song beautiful enough. There is no painting colorful enough. There is no place on earth fitting. Heaven is the best that I can do.
Then there are my children. While watching them grow and learn is both breathtaking and heartbreaking, I grow more proud to be a part of their lives. Day by day, they awe me with their sweet spirits. They are certainly kids, and can try patience like no other... I wouldn't ask for anything different.
Thinking on my life, my family, my blessings... brings so much emotion to my heart and soul, that it is overwhelming beyond imagination. I will never be able to trully express my feelings. I can only hope that I do my best, and they will know as I know, one day.
Thank You.
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Monday, September 26, 2011
Remember...
Every day is a challenge... whether it's small and unnoticable, or a big change that causes you to adjust things to fit around it.
My favorite quote of all time.. shared to me by my favorite people of all time... "Remember WHO you are, and WHERE you came from.". Everything else will come in it's time.
Who I am. I am a child, born to this earth. I am a sister, a fellow pupil of life. I am a daughter, taught to grow and prosper from my own actions. I am a wife, a best friend. I am a mother, a teacher.
Where I came from. I was born of this earth from a heavenly form. A lowly spirit just waiting her turn to give it a shot. I was born to the most WONDERFUL parents anyone could ask for. They taught me and loved me, they still teach me, and love me.
So, to each of you... in good times or hardships, I urge you "remember who you are, and where you came from", and no matter what changes life brings. No matter what joys or hardships. No matter how old you get.... who you are, will always be you. Where you come from... will always be there to catch you if you fall.
God bless.
My favorite quote of all time.. shared to me by my favorite people of all time... "Remember WHO you are, and WHERE you came from.". Everything else will come in it's time.
Who I am. I am a child, born to this earth. I am a sister, a fellow pupil of life. I am a daughter, taught to grow and prosper from my own actions. I am a wife, a best friend. I am a mother, a teacher.
Where I came from. I was born of this earth from a heavenly form. A lowly spirit just waiting her turn to give it a shot. I was born to the most WONDERFUL parents anyone could ask for. They taught me and loved me, they still teach me, and love me.
So, to each of you... in good times or hardships, I urge you "remember who you are, and where you came from", and no matter what changes life brings. No matter what joys or hardships. No matter how old you get.... who you are, will always be you. Where you come from... will always be there to catch you if you fall.
God bless.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
What a world
I sit here, wondering what all the fuss is about. See, I have spent the past couple of weeks in a "funk" of sorts. My happiness hid in a dark corner of my mind, like a child from the boogie man.
I couldn't tell you what the real problem was, or even if there was one. I guess the gift of feeling too deeply, is also a curse of being hurt too deeply.
Today is a new day (cliche :P). the sun is shining. The music is harmonizing. The baby is driving his car around the house in spurts of giggles and "vroom"s. I have a roof over my head. I have food in my belly. I have a best friend, who sleeps by my side every night, who comes home to my side every day. I have kids that are rambunctious and free spirited. I have a multitude of family that I can CALL family. I have friends.
I am spoiled rotten, and should be on my knees, thanking God for all that I am given!
I couldn't tell you what the real problem was, or even if there was one. I guess the gift of feeling too deeply, is also a curse of being hurt too deeply.
Today is a new day (cliche :P). the sun is shining. The music is harmonizing. The baby is driving his car around the house in spurts of giggles and "vroom"s. I have a roof over my head. I have food in my belly. I have a best friend, who sleeps by my side every night, who comes home to my side every day. I have kids that are rambunctious and free spirited. I have a multitude of family that I can CALL family. I have friends.
I am spoiled rotten, and should be on my knees, thanking God for all that I am given!
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Today...
The sun is shining. It's perfect weather to go for a swim, or do some yard work. It's perfect weather to get a tan, or go out to the mall. It's perfect weather to go boating, or hang with friends on the beach..
It's perfect weather to stay in and play with my kids, and spend time with my family.
Today, the laundry is going to slowly pile up. I'll get to it tomorrow. Today, some of the dishes will fill the sink unattended. I'll get to it tomorrow. Today, my bed goes unmade. I'll get to it sometime before bed...
Today, I play with my kids. Today I spend hours talking about everything and nothing. Today, I stay in my pajamas and forget to brush my hair.
Priorities :)
It's perfect weather to stay in and play with my kids, and spend time with my family.
Today, the laundry is going to slowly pile up. I'll get to it tomorrow. Today, some of the dishes will fill the sink unattended. I'll get to it tomorrow. Today, my bed goes unmade. I'll get to it sometime before bed...
Today, I play with my kids. Today I spend hours talking about everything and nothing. Today, I stay in my pajamas and forget to brush my hair.
Priorities :)
Thursday, July 21, 2011
They grow up so fast!
Our youngest, Eli, is 7 months old. Such a teeny tiny little bundle, right? HAHA He's huge!, At nearly 30 pounds, he believes he's as big as his older brothers and sisters, as did the one before him, and the one before her....
Eli is sitting up, and making attempts at crawling positions. I am so proud to watch him through these, albeit small, amazingly important milestones. At the same time, it saddens me. Knowing where the crawling lead, and so on, they grow up too fast.
I try to spend as much time with my kids as I am able.... and yet, it's never enough.
Our oldest, Kamron, is nearing 16. Such a young and innocent age, right? Absolutely, and yet, he's so grown up.
Having been through childhood and the teen years, we know that they view every day as a year. Somehow, their every year, is like a day to us. Too soon.
They have to grow and learn and choose for themselves. We don't have to like it, but we do have to accept it.
Our kids have their days... the days where I think for a fleeting second, "I cannot wait until you're out on your own"... and then my brain and heart cringe at the thought.
Our generation is not the first to venture here. We won't be the last.
As they see time slowly ticking away until they can be "grown up", we realize that every day, every minute, is a precious gift. A gift that we should cherish to the best of our abilities.
LOL so, I have been SO frusterated for the past week over the mess in my house. Otterpops, you know what I mean? Wrappers left all over the house. Melted popsicle in my floors... I even lost a flip-flop walking through the kitchen! LOL
This morning, I decided not to be frusterated. How much did we LOVE those things? It's mid summer here in Yuma, and it has been SO HOT! What kind of human being (much less mother) would I be if I denied them this? Especially considering that I won't get to do so in say... 5 years. Not a long time in the grand scheme of life.
Anyways. I am mostly rambling today, but I did want to share my sudden insight. My house may be a wreck sometimes. I may have to shampoo my carpets once or twice a week. I may have a never-ending pile of laundry and dishes to attend to. But in a blink of an eye, that will all be gone. Along with my babies.
Don't forget what's really important in life. Nothing overrides family. Nothing.
Eli is sitting up, and making attempts at crawling positions. I am so proud to watch him through these, albeit small, amazingly important milestones. At the same time, it saddens me. Knowing where the crawling lead, and so on, they grow up too fast.
I try to spend as much time with my kids as I am able.... and yet, it's never enough.
Our oldest, Kamron, is nearing 16. Such a young and innocent age, right? Absolutely, and yet, he's so grown up.
Having been through childhood and the teen years, we know that they view every day as a year. Somehow, their every year, is like a day to us. Too soon.
They have to grow and learn and choose for themselves. We don't have to like it, but we do have to accept it.
Our kids have their days... the days where I think for a fleeting second, "I cannot wait until you're out on your own"... and then my brain and heart cringe at the thought.
Our generation is not the first to venture here. We won't be the last.
As they see time slowly ticking away until they can be "grown up", we realize that every day, every minute, is a precious gift. A gift that we should cherish to the best of our abilities.
LOL so, I have been SO frusterated for the past week over the mess in my house. Otterpops, you know what I mean? Wrappers left all over the house. Melted popsicle in my floors... I even lost a flip-flop walking through the kitchen! LOL
This morning, I decided not to be frusterated. How much did we LOVE those things? It's mid summer here in Yuma, and it has been SO HOT! What kind of human being (much less mother) would I be if I denied them this? Especially considering that I won't get to do so in say... 5 years. Not a long time in the grand scheme of life.
Anyways. I am mostly rambling today, but I did want to share my sudden insight. My house may be a wreck sometimes. I may have to shampoo my carpets once or twice a week. I may have a never-ending pile of laundry and dishes to attend to. But in a blink of an eye, that will all be gone. Along with my babies.
Don't forget what's really important in life. Nothing overrides family. Nothing.
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Up, up, and away!
So, I took some time to contemplate where I stand today. Where do I stand spiritually, physically, financially.. where does my family stand in the mix? Well, of course my family is top of the charts important.... How did I get where I am today? How did I gain/lose beliefs. How did I lose/gain some physical traits? How did I lose/gain what I have monitarily?
This is a fun one. Difficult to put into words.... nor should I, at least not in details.
Life has it's ups and downs. It doesn't care who you are, what you look like, how much money you have. Each of us is on a journey.
And while a lot of us may have similar goals and hopes for where we end up... nobody can choose your direction, but you.
Holy crapola, Batman! Have I turned into some interesting alleys and off ramps in my day. I have no doubt there will be many MANY more! But WOW, am I ever thankful for those twists, turns, and bouts of construction along the way. I LOVE where I am now.
It's like taking a trip that you have taken one hundred times before. Suddenly you blow a tire, or run out of gas, and are forced to exit somewhere you'd never had the time to notice before. You find yourself somewhere completely foreign. You pull into a rustic looking shop, hoping to at least use a phone, only to find the greatest couple on the planet. These people don't know you from Adam's housecat, and yet they help you out. Invite you in, keep you comfortable, and assist you.
Had this obstacle NOT had happened, would your trip be ruined? Not likely... but since it did, you leave there all the better, because of an "unlucky" circumstance. This is life. We may not like what happens along the way. We may even complain about these things, and yet.... life would seem empty when you take away all of these tiny little "mishaps".
God bless my mistakes. Thank you, Lord, for allowing me to fall on my face a lot. Thank God that I never have to know what life would be like now, otherwise.
So.. your past matters, but only because it has molded your present. Your future matters, only as curves ahead, along your journey. What you do now... today.. that's what matters.
What will I do today? Be thankful for yesterday and tomorrow :)
God bless the imperfect :)
This is a fun one. Difficult to put into words.... nor should I, at least not in details.
Life has it's ups and downs. It doesn't care who you are, what you look like, how much money you have. Each of us is on a journey.
And while a lot of us may have similar goals and hopes for where we end up... nobody can choose your direction, but you.
Holy crapola, Batman! Have I turned into some interesting alleys and off ramps in my day. I have no doubt there will be many MANY more! But WOW, am I ever thankful for those twists, turns, and bouts of construction along the way. I LOVE where I am now.
It's like taking a trip that you have taken one hundred times before. Suddenly you blow a tire, or run out of gas, and are forced to exit somewhere you'd never had the time to notice before. You find yourself somewhere completely foreign. You pull into a rustic looking shop, hoping to at least use a phone, only to find the greatest couple on the planet. These people don't know you from Adam's housecat, and yet they help you out. Invite you in, keep you comfortable, and assist you.
Had this obstacle NOT had happened, would your trip be ruined? Not likely... but since it did, you leave there all the better, because of an "unlucky" circumstance. This is life. We may not like what happens along the way. We may even complain about these things, and yet.... life would seem empty when you take away all of these tiny little "mishaps".
God bless my mistakes. Thank you, Lord, for allowing me to fall on my face a lot. Thank God that I never have to know what life would be like now, otherwise.
So.. your past matters, but only because it has molded your present. Your future matters, only as curves ahead, along your journey. What you do now... today.. that's what matters.
What will I do today? Be thankful for yesterday and tomorrow :)
God bless the imperfect :)
Monday, July 18, 2011
Why
Revisit your "WHY"... using a tool I have as a coach, I thought I would bring this up for everyone.
We all have our bad days and frusteration. So WHY? Why keep going? Why did you take that first step? Whether you began this journey for yourself, or family, or whatever. Remember your why.
If you lose sight of why you want to better yourself, and get lost in the now, you'll lose the bigger picture. In this bigger picture, is the better you.
"Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow." ~ Doug Firebaugh
My "why" was initially to get skinny... as I followed my path slowly, I found that what I really wanted, was to be healthy and happy. My kids learn from me..... my path has been ridden with twist, turns and even obstacles. It's not an overnight walk in the park. Still, I will follow myself, and if I can help some fellow travelers along the way... all the better!
"We are all inventors, each sailing out on a voyage of discovery, guided each by a private chart, of which there is no duplicate. The world is all gates, all opportunities." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Last night, I ran into a curve in the road.. and found myself dancing around like an idiot, playing with my children. Anyone know 'the Carlton'? LOL If I concentrate on the "now", I miss that.... I couldn't dance around like a complete idiot a few months ago. What does that say to me? It says that I have come a long way, even though I have further to go.
The storm is behind me, the sun up ahead. I want more days like this...... I WILL have more days like this...
We all have our bad days and frusteration. So WHY? Why keep going? Why did you take that first step? Whether you began this journey for yourself, or family, or whatever. Remember your why.
If you lose sight of why you want to better yourself, and get lost in the now, you'll lose the bigger picture. In this bigger picture, is the better you.
"Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow." ~ Doug Firebaugh
My "why" was initially to get skinny... as I followed my path slowly, I found that what I really wanted, was to be healthy and happy. My kids learn from me..... my path has been ridden with twist, turns and even obstacles. It's not an overnight walk in the park. Still, I will follow myself, and if I can help some fellow travelers along the way... all the better!
"We are all inventors, each sailing out on a voyage of discovery, guided each by a private chart, of which there is no duplicate. The world is all gates, all opportunities." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
Last night, I ran into a curve in the road.. and found myself dancing around like an idiot, playing with my children. Anyone know 'the Carlton'? LOL If I concentrate on the "now", I miss that.... I couldn't dance around like a complete idiot a few months ago. What does that say to me? It says that I have come a long way, even though I have further to go.
The storm is behind me, the sun up ahead. I want more days like this...... I WILL have more days like this...
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