Wednesday

Hump Day.  Aptly named as the halfway point leading away from the average work week, and leading toward the weekend.

Perhaps it's something we are taught, or something engrained in us at birth.  Regardless, I can feel it.  The weight on my shoulders lessens, and I feel like I can look forward past today.

Perhaps it has nothing to do with it being Wednesday, and everything to do with life, in general.

It's already starting to get hot outside, yet the sun shines and the sky is a deep blue.  I pray for rain, but am blessed to not have too much of it.  The light streams through the windows, like a beacon of my mood.

Eli has been sleeping in lately, so I have had plenty of time to just prepare myself for every upcomming day.  Having been able to avoid a sudden onslaught of the every day, has certainly helped my mood.

Today is my rambling day :)

I am so in love with my husband.  Of all of the mistakes that I have made throughout my life (although I've no regrets), I must have done some monsterously good deed at one point or another.  God has blessed me with so much!  All I can do, is continue to be the person He wants me to be, to be able to pay back His generosity, even if it's just the interest.  Steven was certainly sent to me.  He was my wake up call.  He breathed life into my heart and soul, when I didn't even know I needed it.  He saved me, and continues to save me every single day.  Describing the love that I feel for him is impossible.  There is no song beautiful enough.  There is no painting colorful enough.  There is no place on earth fitting.  Heaven is the best that I can do.

Then there are my children.  While watching them grow and learn is both breathtaking and heartbreaking, I grow more proud to be a part of their lives.  Day by day, they awe me with their sweet spirits.  They are certainly kids, and can try patience like no other... I wouldn't ask for anything different.

Thinking on my life, my family, my blessings... brings so much emotion to my heart and soul, that it is overwhelming beyond imagination.  I will never be able to trully express my feelings.  I can only hope that I do my best, and they will know as I know, one day.

Thank You.

Remember...

Every day is a challenge... whether it's small and unnoticable, or a big change that causes you to adjust things to fit around it.

My favorite quote of all time.. shared to me by my favorite people of all time... "Remember WHO you are, and WHERE you came from.".  Everything else will come in it's time.

Who I am.  I am a child, born to this earth.  I am a sister, a fellow pupil of life.  I am a daughter, taught to grow and prosper from my own actions.  I am a wife, a best friend.  I am a mother, a teacher.

Where I came from.  I was born of this earth from a heavenly form.  A lowly spirit just waiting her turn to give it a shot.  I was born to the most WONDERFUL parents anyone could ask for.  They taught me and loved me, they still teach me, and love me.

So, to each of you... in good times or hardships, I urge you "remember who you are, and where you came from", and no matter what changes life brings.  No matter what joys or hardships.  No matter how old you get.... who you are, will always be you.  Where you come from... will always be there to catch you if you fall.

God bless.

What a world

I sit here, wondering what all the fuss is about.  See, I have spent the past couple of weeks in a "funk" of sorts.  My happiness hid in a dark corner of my mind, like a child from the boogie man.

I couldn't tell you what the real problem was, or even if there was one.  I guess the gift of feeling too deeply, is also a curse of being hurt too deeply.

Today is a new day (cliche :P).  the sun is shining.  The music is harmonizing.  The baby is driving his car around the house in spurts of giggles and "vroom"s.  I have a roof over my head.  I have food in my belly.  I have a best friend, who sleeps by my side every night, who comes home to my side every day.  I have kids that are rambunctious and free spirited.  I have a multitude of family that I can CALL family.  I have friends.

I am spoiled rotten, and should be on my knees, thanking God for all that I am given!